An earthquake happened at Indonesia on 12th April and the disaster had affected among us since that day too.
I had spent my night looking for budget hotels, transports and so, posted it at facebook secret group, and u had agreed with it and replied me with an “On!” without any hesitating.
The next morning, you were complaining hooilean and huixing had stopped you from going out with your cousin. They told you Georgetown was danger as all of us had experienced the aftershocks at Penang. You claimed that Georgetown has a distance from Gurney so it is safe to go although it is still shaking. Moreover, you said yourself you had experienced another aftershocks at Georgetown area that night too! You complained their reactions were big and the way they stopped you is quite harsh.
Just after the breakfast, you came to me in a private chat box, asking me to postpone the date to June as there will be another 3 days holidays in that month. You think that it is very danger although it is 1 month later. OH, What A Surprise!! Georgetown is safe when it is still shaking, but Langkawi is danger after 1 month? Nice logic huh? Then I told you I won’t able to make it if postpone to June cause I’m going back home, but you guys still can go yourselves during that time without me. Before that, I had told you so many times that I will go home during June holidays again and again and seems like you never pay attention or even listened to what had I said at all. And then, the cold war starts.
You were discussing with soketing that I want to go home, where at the end, soketing commented at facebook group asking me to “adjust” my day to go home. What’s wrong if I didn’t follow you guys to go to Langkawi? I had told you, you guys can still go yourselves with the date you are free with it! Then, you started the cold war! Nice friend, huh?
Then, it’s Friday. I had done with all the anger and was thinking should had stopped it. When peifang and I went to pantry, I found that peifang had mistaken our spoon on Thursday, so I went back to your seat to take back mine. I asked you: “still don’t want to go to take your breakfast?” with my hand holding your cup to take back my spoon. BUT, WHAT IS YOUR REACTION? You Grabbed Back Your Cup Immediately and told me with a so-called ‘nice tone’: “I Will Go Myself!”
OK, fine! I tell you I just want to take back my spoon and you just keep quiet. Although you didn’t join at the end, peifang and I made the tuna spread done nicely to soketing and you. So am I the one who didn’t take any step backward for this situation? Since then, not even a single word is spoken among us.
During that afternoon, you were complaining with peifang that I showed you my black face first on that morning. But what had you done to me when I asked you to go to breakfast? Who is showing her black face to whom? Did your ‘black face’ means that I didn’t turn my face to you and smile to you that morning? Sometimes, I mean before we quarrel, even though I smile to you, you didn’t smile back to me or didn’t turn your head over me also. So I’m the one who is wrong from the beginning? Am I? At least I had asked you to go to eat breakfast together and at the end, you didn’t even ask me when you are going to lunch!
Today, It’s Monday Again. I remembered your complain last Friday saying that I showed my black face to you. So, when you reach, I TURNED MY FACE AND SMILE AT YOU. Then? You didn’t look at me at all. You just showed me your black face. LOL! Now I’m the one to blame again? Do you want to blame me for making your mood bad too? SHIT!!
SO THIS IS THE WAY YOU WEIGHT THE FRIENDSHIP AMONG US, HUH?
I had taken my steps back again and again because I don’t want our relationship to be in this stupid cold war status, and any action that you had done? NONE! NONE AT ALL!!
Anybody, just tell me, did I done anything wrong? Am I the one who is wrong in planning this stupid idiot shitty trip? DAMN!!
Did you ever think that my mood may be worst than you? Planning is not easy; it wastes time, at the end it cancelled again. I had tried to get back well with you but you didn’t accept at all. Then, tell me what’s the point your mood is bad than mine????
How I wish she reads this post right now!!
